Well today I am supposed to hear back from Costco about starting the job and I am awaiting the result of the background ( I have no criminal record and have never failed a background check) I passed the drug test and they said they’d contact me this week about starting orientation; I was hoping to start as soon as possible so I could avoid working Thanksgiving. I am also just ready to leave my old job; I’ve pretty much stopped caring at this point; in a sense they broke me and I am just exhausted from being there. I thought of it as almost being in a prison; knowing you’re going to be released in a week and that’s the longest week of your whole sentence because you know you’re leaving and you are just staring at the calendar; obsessing about the days you can finally walk out and never come back; that’s exactly how I feel.
So I am at my most anxious when I am waiting for anything that requires urgency ( phone call, email text) and I always go through this little anxiety attack in my head and that tape loop; they won’t call; you won’t get the job; maybe your current job will say you aren’t a good worker etc; over and over and again. I’m just visibly anxious; my legs feel like they are shaking at 100 miles mph and I am just tapping my fingers in frustration. I hate this anxiety so much because I have tried every which way to calm myself and remind myself that more often than I do get a call back; the anxiousness persists. I figured I wanted to write about my anxiety as it was happened so someone might get an idea of the feelings I have during this heightened state of anxiety. Even when I send a simple text; I got through this sort of script in my head and I don’t calm down until the person texts me back or I give up and realize they aren’t going to talk to me. That is why I only like people who respond to messages promptly because that way I know they want to talk to me and don’t keep me waiting. I’m pretty I’m not the only one all this anxiety but it certainly feels like I’m alone with this most of the time. Well I am going to get something to eat and take a shower; maybe that will calm my nerves. And I won’t make another post about this until I hear back from Costco and start officially working there. Thank you so much for the support friends; I really need it on some days
Dave
Those feelings are also so real to me! My answer to everything is worship.. I know you’re going to be like Argh Diane you say that for everything. . But I honestly find so much peace worshipping. It shifts the focus from my feelings and me onto God and how big He is and His promises that He knows the plans He has for me. I find comfort in that. Don’t stress, they will call and you do have the job! It’s already been done – keep telling yourself that! Lotsa love… Di
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Well I did get a call back but you are right; I find a lot of comfort in God; I really do. Thank you
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And? What is the verdict?
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Oh sorry lol. They hired me and I had my first day today; sorry :). Check out my new post
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Yay!!!! Congrats my friend! You see now, already done in Jesus name! Will definitely go check it out! Praise God I an so happy for you!
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Amen to that
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I can so relate to this when I was waiting to start my job that I now work in. I hope the shower and deciding what to eat takes your mind off it. It is hard waiting, especially when you know how much you want this.
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Well I have awesome news. They called me earlier and I start orientation tomorrow!!! I’m so excited
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Brilliant!
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Anxiety, the bane of my existence. 🤗
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I can’t imagine life without anxiety; sadly
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I can totally relate – I remembered how anxious I was while I was still at my old job and waiting for that call of “freedom.” Hope they will call you soon, and everything will work out just fine:)
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Soon after this; I did get a call and I have orientation tomorrow at 7 am. I am so excited; can’t wait to start!
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Yay! I’m so happy for you. Congratulations 🎉
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Thank you so much, friend. I just finished my first day; it went great
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