I haven’t been sleeping well lately and last night I finally slept the while night through for about 8 hours (which is a rarity); I had a nice long vivid dream. As soon as I woke up, I immediately wrote down the dream; the best I could remember.
The dream started out at a funeral for a little boy that had died; it was large crowd and I was feeling upset; I could feel myself start to cry. I was carrying a box which I think had his ashes; I almost dropped it a few times and people kept looking at me; I was really nervous. I placed the box on the altar and afterward we were standing on these big steps outside of the church; just talking. Then I was with the disabled ministry and we were in a shopping center and close to an abandoned warehouse. We were just hanging out there for some reason; one of the leaders was there but in the dream she looked different. I keep trying to talk to her but she was ignoring me; in fact, everyone seemed to be ignoring me. At the end of the shopping bar was like a biker bar and there were all these tough guys walking in. There was some woods to the side of the bar; full of trash. I was talking to one of the young adults there; I was asking him how his job was going etc. I had to go the bathroom so I was looking for a place to go; I went in the woods and came back and everyone was in the same area; gathered in a circle just talking. At one point I was just walking around and I think I was in a house. I was still concerned about the leader who was ignoring me. All of a sudden, I was laying on the floor and I saw an old childhood friend. In the background the song “Under the Bridge” by the Red-Hot Chili Peppers was playing. That song reminds me of my brother who passed away. In the dream I said to my friend “This reminds me of Joe” He said quietly, I know, man, and gave me a hug. Next, we were all back outside and I had to use the bathroom again. I went back in the woods and when I returned; everyone was still there. I got bored went to the abandoned building by myself and it some graffiti and there were some kids skateboarding. I came back and everyone was gone; I was concerned. I was looking everywhere and couldn’t find them. I ended up in an office building and trying calling them on their cell phones but to no avail. I walked through a nature path and they were nowhere to be found. I was feeling angry and hurt and literally abandoned.
I woke up kind of shaken; trying to find meaning in this dream. All I know is that maybe Even as I write this, I am emotional about; it was such an intense dream with so many interpretations. I have to remind it was only a dream and I am ok.
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