I have been told how wonderful Yoga is for reducing stressed; getting centered; helping with some of my physical issues and just finding an escape from the chaotic world outside. So about a year I decided to try yoga for the first; it was relaxing but I struggling keeping my balance and following directions but nonetheless it was an enjoyable experience and I told myself if I had more time I’d take a few more classes; now I’m not so sure. It seems not even the peaceful atmosphere of Yoga is safe from gun violence.
I woke up this morning to read the news and saw the headline ” 2 shot dead at Florida yoga studio” I didn’t even bother to read the article because I already know the story; it’s been told time and time again in this country. People going about their day; at a religious service; going to school; having drinks at nightclub; shopping at the mall and now yoga are shot by a mentally deranged ( usually white male) person with no known motive and usually ends up turning the gun of themselves; leaving the rest of us with no answers. Its depressing beyond belief; it’s depressing that nothing is done about this. This is a broken ugly hate filled world and we live in a country that has accepted that this kind of violence is a normal part of living; even at a yoga studio; one of the most peaceful places you can be in. I can picture it; people are on the floor on their yoga mats; eyes closed; soft voices; with new age music playing in the background; mediating and trying to gain some peace in their life; all of a sudden being awoken from the state of relaxation to the sound of gunfire; it sounds like something from a movie or something; it’s too horrifying to be real.
I am not political or social expert; I have no answers except to speak from my heart. Why do we hurt each other so? Why can’t we do something about the amount guns in our country? Why makes this society so violent to begin with? Why are white males so angry? Why do we value aggression and dominance over passiveness and compassion in our society? I don’t have the answers to those questions but all I know is that my heart hurts for those who died. My heart hurts that this man was in such pain that he not only took his life; but the lives of two innocent people.
I don’t have words except to express my heartfelt sadness and anger whenever I read things like this; I can’t accept it; I won’t let it be normal and I won’t stop talking about it. I will speak my mind even if others disagree. I am an idealist and a part me thinks love is the answer and I know some people would laugh at me but I certainly don’t think hate or anger is the answer; maybe understanding. Why does this affect me so much; why can’t I be numb to it like everyone else?. All I can do is write and I hope we can heal as a nation and make this a safer place